Always Miss you Spyder 



I will miss the way your green eyes sparkled when you smiled. 

I will miss the sound of your accented voice. 

I will miss having you beside me. 

I will miss your never ending wisdom. 

I will miss listening to you singing vampire heart and gone with the sin while we were working. 

I will miss your arms and they way they always made me feel so safe. 

I will miss your undeniable need to try new things. 

I will miss holding your hand when we walked home together. 

I will miss the way you never turned down a dare. 

I will miss the fact that you could always make me laugh. 

I will miss your laughter too. 

I will miss your high pain tolerance. You were the best to tattoo. You barely even moved. 

I will miss your long winded stories. 

I will miss the way you stole my eyeliner cause the ladies like a man in makeup. 

I will miss the scar above your lip that you always tried to hide. 

I will miss all the intricate tattoos that covered your skin. 

I will miss the way you used to dance around just to make me smile. 

I will miss the times we shared. 

I will miss your generosity and your kindness. 

I will miss playing 'rockband' when we were bored. 

I will miss going to the blues with you for our "Irish cocktails". 

I will miss waiting for you as you took two hours just to do your hair. 

I will miss the way you changed your look almost as often as people change their underwear. 

I will miss the way I could count on you for anything. 

I will miss talking on the phone till the sun came up 

I will miss covering for you when you were late for work. 

I will miss you covering for me when I was late too. 

I will miss your tears. 

I will miss your joy. 

I will miss Your love of music and art. 

I will miss having someone to share these loves with. 

I will miss the way you made me feel special and beautiful and loved. 

I will miss being able to tell you all my deepest secrets. 

I will miss the way you seemed to know what I was feeling with just a look or touch. 

I will miss your energy and your self control. 

I will miss your sense of humor and the stupid jokes you told. 

I will miss absolutely everything about you! 

~Ana Sophia


Darkness seems to fill every corner of my existence 

I cannot think I cannot breathe 

I don’t want to 

Let me lay here 

Let the misery take me 



Memories that’s all that is left 

It does not feel like enough 

Why have I been left with this pain? 



I feel him he is here 

Comfort me help me to survive 

I think of the time when we can be reunited 

Until then stay close 

Whisper to me in my sleep 

Help me to get thru each day 


~Nayail


Brother

Why did you go? How could you leave me? I dont know what I am going to do without you. I dont know how to get by. I am Angry you left. I feel like punching you for dying. Its not right. I love you so much and you left me. What the hell am I supposed to do now? Part of me wants to hate you for leaving so early. I don't know how to deal with my emotions. I want to scream and cry at the same time. I feel like I am losing my mind. Its not fair. You were the strong one. You were the smart one. How am I supposed to take care of all you left undone? You took the best part of me when you left. How could you do this? I know deep inside its not your fault. I know you never wanted to leave but I am still mad. I have never felt so alone so affraid so angry so heartbroken. How am I supposed to be strong? How am I suppossed to go on? I died inside when you died. 


~Thorn


***Music dedicated to Spyder. Him was his favourite band. No copy right infringement intended****